Blah, blah, blah. Life goes on.....

Weird shit. - Being fifty, I mean. I know, those above fifty years old will shake their heads at me and those younger will think I'm a crotchedly old man. It's good that I look younger than the stereotypical Five least that's what I am often told. I have experienced many health issues over the past twenty five years. It has been a blessing in disguise as it led me towards alternative health, which led me to accupuncture and then to Taoism. It has introduced me to the Buddhist community. But sometimes, people! To think that I will never again date a girl under twenty five! (yes, I'm happily married) To think that I can't walk into a crowd of loudmouths, find the biggest one and shut him up....(the best form of crowd control!) To think that I have to watch everything I put in my mouth because I'm getting fatter by the day! To think that in another thirty years I'll probably be dead. Kinda pissess me off, ya know?


chosha said…
Sadly I do understand, and I'm not even 40 yet! *sigh*
Hi There Tim,

I really love this post, you have a very cool sense of humor. And from one writer to another, your stuff is really very engaging and catchy. Sounds you have had quite a life, and really take it all in stride. Cute little kids too.

You found my blog earlier tonight, and I wanted to thank you for posting there. I dont blame you being overwhelmed--when something is truly deep then it's actually SIMPLE and I am sure as *!&%$! not there yet, though I really want to be. Maybe someday...

I havent really told anyone about my blogs and don't really know how to get these things "out there" at all. So I was did you find me?

Good job yourself Tim, and I wish you all the best! ...Aeriea
Tim said…
Aeriea - just hit next blog in the upper right corner on Blogger. I usually look around and leave comment on the interesting ones I find. Be well and don't be a stranger!
Rowan said…
I know that this is an old post, but I have trying to aclimatize myself to your blog (I can here via Lost's) and I found this post to be profound.

I am only 26 years old, going on 40 (as I always say). I am a close friend IRL of Losts. I have "significant depression" and I am always battling it. I think it has always been there from birth, but its only been given a name for me in the last 6 years or so. Your flow of written speech is even similar to my own, I recognized it might as well be writing for me. Don't get me wrong, I am only 26 but I have LIVED.

Sometimes, I imagine that those that have lived a life and saw it with open eyes absorb everything they see, feel, touch - including others lives. When there is more bad (at times) than good, I imagine that we start to overflow with emotion and then it becomes all that we are - more than feel. If you asked anyone who knew me well, they would tell you my wish for my epitaph would be "She who was happiest when she was sad". This would be because it has been my creative/emotional outlet, whereby most of the time....I am depressed, physically, mentally, or simply angry without expression, without a cause. Just free floating, just beneath the surface anxious depression. To express it sometimes feel devine, melancholy is welcomed because it's something (rather than nothing). I sometimes think I'm losing it because maybe I haven't dealt with things that I thought were long-since complete. I think you are closer to the truth. YOur blog has offered me a ray of sunshine in an otherwise dismal landscape.

Interesting: you are a writer, I've always aspired to be, you had a "strange" family (as far as I can tell), as had I, you have depression as do I, you had children as did I, you question things as do I and we both seem to have a religious background, plus, I've always thought my own beliefs (that I've come to accept on my own) most resemble a buddhist traditon. I have been afraid to study this more through a church or whatnot as I am not Asian and felt I'd be considered out of place. What could you tell me-if anything?