Boredom is such a strange state of mind; dullness, doldrums...
So, I decided to look once again at the "five hindrances" or negative mental states that prolong our state of dis-ease or dukka.
As listed in Wikipedia, they are:
1. Sensual desire (kamacchanda): Craving for pleasure to the senses.2. Anger or ill-will (vyapada): Feelings of malice directed toward others.3. Sloth, torpor and boredom (thina-middha): Half-hearted action with little or no concentration.4. Restlessness and worry (uddhacca-kukkacca): The inability to calm the mind.5. Doubt (vicikiccha): Lack of conviction or trust.
My first thought was, "Well, I'm screwed."
As a man that is entering the August of his years, I sometimes mourn that I will never again know the touch of young love.
I've never been labeled an angry man. Those that know me well tell others that they wouldn't like to see it. There are times when I feel that my only sense of satisfaction would come from administering a beating to someone.
Sloth (boredom) - I have come to realize, manifests itself when my mind is absent of the above two fantasies. Hmmmmm.
But them comes worry and doubt. The two are just different sides of the same coin. When the coin stands on end (in balance) worry and doubt are in their natural state. Not in total absence, as worry and doubt in balance appears to me as a state of awareness; of being alert, but within the framework of peace. At least as I have experienced. I have a deep sense of faith; of confidence, in that, that which I am seeking is within me and is also causing me to seek. It is waiting only for my full discovery.
What better time for me to examine the five hindrances and unlock their cure?
Access to Insight http://www.accesstoinsight.org/index.html is always a resource. I found this for study - http://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/authors/nyanaponika/wheel026.html
Join me, if you will.