What the fuck.............OH! the learning

Listen. I cannot stress enough about how much life has been a learning experience for me. Like we are here to learn; to grow; to understand. I worked as a Lab Tech in the coatings industry in the early 80's. I had everything under control. Granted, I wasn't the most people oriented person, but the job was done. Then, they hired a guy to be my boss. He didn't know his arse from his elbow and it was my job to train him. Just seeing his car pull into the yard each day made me sick. He was a total fuck up, being paid more than me and I had to train him!!! It was truly an experience I learned a lot from. I wish we could sit and discuss it sometime.
So, here I am. Going for an interview with an old customer of the company I last worked for, and they want to hire me as the ink tech's boss. He has always done a great job but lacks the discipline to, well, discipline. Hire, fire, review, exercise judgement! They want to bring me in as the manager of all shifts. Cake is great. I do have a major knot in my stomach. This is ALL that I have put forth as wanting. Less than 10 miles drive. 15 minutes on the road. Management....not getting my hands dirty, per se'. The ink comapny people are coming in from Cal to meet w/e on Thursday. I will need the utmost finesse to walk this walk. I know that I can do it. But, I admit it. I'm insecure. Perhaps that is a blessing. Wasn't it Jefferson that said something about the best leaders being those that didn't seek it? Well, I love you guys. I get so much feedback that helps me to stay or reach towards balance. Please....don't ever stop leaving comments or e mailing me.

Comments

justrose said…
well i just don't know what to say that won't sound platitudinal, and you have the wisdom to know how all this is working for good, far beyond what i can say. but ... with jobs for me it's always been a fit, i knew, or not. and yet there is always a bit of stretch and something to strive toward. so i put my mind in the place and go there. in spite of the stomach knot. best of luck!
Rowan said…
I'm not sure I can offer any pearls of wisdom. I tend to take jobs that no one in their right mind would keep and stay there out of a sense of loyalty. I'm stupid I know. That said, my current job is pretty good, my boss is fair and I don't have any responsibility, what could be better?
alix said…
one can usually spot a good, hard worker by the level of their bravado proximal to their actual ability. and then there's always the stepping stone effect from one place to another...

whatever comes of it, i hope you'll be happy and provided for. :)

(i too endured the scenario of training someone who actually turned out to be my boss. the higher ups concealed that from me until a critical moment. then my life was made a living hell until i said sayonara.)
Tim said…
Justrose, I know this is a fit for me. I have lost all manner of discipline and focus during my time off. In order for me to best serve the company, my employees and my family, I have already given up the late nights, the drink in hand and have begun to renew my morning meditation practice. For me, all this is essential. Perhaps, for another none of this is necessary but for me it is a must.
Rowan, there is absolutley nothing wrong with having a job such as you have. In Taoism, the tree that is bent and knotted is prized over the one tall and straight as it is soon cut down and used for another's purpose. What could be better than the job you have now?
Alix, Bravado, working hard, is never a replacement for wisdom, compassion and a desire for success for all. Leaders that possess these qualities will always succeed. I work to cultivate these daily.
exfbonnie said…
oh, I was about to comment and the PIxie just awoke. just letting you know your posts are so engaging. I will definitely be back to finish reading. Glad you have joined the Blogshphere here. We've really got such good people, new friends, and exceptionally great writers within this group. Im glad Im here. But brb!! gotta get the pixie *ok, honey, Im comingggggg!!!*